... I have no time but-...
It's really really hot outside... Man, it's hard to breathe. xOX;

On the brighter side, I've written some excellent songs and I look forward to really make them. (^_^)/
Also, more photos are in the making. (^3^)

... And I need new nailpolish. >O<;

But I gotta go.

... I have no words...

I wanted to tell so many things before, but just some moments ago I heard someone say Jasmine You of Versailles passed away yesterday... I was hoping it'd be a joke, even though I knew it wasn't- because no one really jokes about these things, right?

... I'm just speechless... I seriously am shocked, and I feel like crying...

I'm still hoping someone will come along and say it was a joke.
'cause this is just-...     

... *speechless*

I can't seem to find my camera... =3=;
Photos that I took can be put on later then. ^^;;

I just tried searching for photos that were taken by other people and found some cool cosplay photos of cosplayers that I didn't get to take shots of. ^^ I'm thinking what cosplay to do next time I go to an anime-event... I'm not sure if I will go to the same event next year - I guess it depends on what artist there will be. xD;

So far I haven't found a lot of photos yet, so, I'll search on later. I'm gonna eat dinner now!

So, I got back home yesterday after my mother felt the need to bring me home instantly after AnimagiC. Okay, I also felt the need to go home, because this last weekend's last day was terrible... >3<;

Friday, and most of Saturday everything has been great, even though Friday Lilly and I missed the whole animecon. ^^; So, this day, we just walked around a bit, bought some food and drinks and then went back. Saturday, we dressed up 2 times because Friday we didn't really. It was fun, and eventually we also got to see Aural Vampire. I also got to see some great cosplays! ^^ The sad thing was really, I lost my birth controle strip on Thursday and then took it too late... >3>; When this happens, it almost always affects my moods... >3<;

Everything was really great until Saturday night, when I felt lightheaded because I didn't eat and I was thirsty... I also felt a bit of an outcast between all the german people, but I didn't feel that was a problem until my moodswings arrived... =3=;

So, I felt moody all the way back to the hotel, and then through the whole night plus Sunday it was still there... =3=; Lilly went to the animecon alone and left me. So, as I predicted, Lilly and I got into a fight... I guess it really wasn't the best time to get the happy period days too early. >3<;

At this time, I'm in a rush, because I smell and REALLY want to shower. But all in all, Lilly was right with things for my- now clear- opinion, but I also feel I had some right points. I still feel it's a little strange to leave someone in a country unfamiliar to their own, and that it's a little rude to chat with everyone and leave out the person you're with for the most part- BUT, I am glad she did go to the animecon and left me, because she was also right with things, and I'm glad she had a good time. She payed her part and I feel it would've been unfair to destroy everything. There were more things discussed and- like I said- both of us had some good arguments. Both of us had some right and false ones too, but at this time, telling everything would take too much time.
In the end, I'm glad this moody and shitty period of mine which was only worse because it happened too early, only ruined my last day and not hers. ^^; If I didn't lose my birth controle strip, I probably would've tried harder.

All in all, the first 2 days were for the most part good, but at this time both of us think we're in for a long-term-break... ^^;
Really long-term, I think~ Because the boiling points went over the top.

I'll go now, real fast 'cause I have a lot to do. Later I'll probably tell everything with more detail- the good parts anyways. And I'll also show some photos. Photos that other people took, photos that I took, and also show the things that I bought.

I'm not sure if I'll edit this post, or make a new one for it, but we'll see! ^^

Yeah, I'll be away from today around 5 'til next week Monday. ^^;
I'll be in Germany - Bonn if anyone searches me. xDDD;;

To be honest, my excitement went bye-bye when finally realizing I wouldn't be able to get everything perfect with my outfits, but I'll just try to make the best of it. After all, I also like to be on the road, to look outside, and I am looking forward to making goofy photos and visiting the cathedral in Cologne... (I think it was there, yeah~ xD)
So, I just have to try and not think about the fact that I look stupid. =)

It's a bad time to go away actually, because LOST will be on on Friday, for TWO hours, and there will also be cool movies on that I will miss... >3<;
But I think going to Germany and all will be good for me. ^^; There's no going back!!!

We'll see how I end up, and I hope my mood won't suck when I'm there.
I'll miss you guys! <xD;;

Now, I gotta pack my stuff and put my outfits on one by one to see what everything looks like - so if something sucks big-time, I'll be able to change something.

That's all!!!

... title from MATOI.

This post is written in a rush, so no long story this time. xD;

LOST will be on in a few hours, but besides that I did nothing else but to think of clothes again... =3=; I seriously have to solve this problem before next week Wednesday... Stupid time-attack~ >3>; I haven't gotten any further with this stupid problem. Not much anyway...

Now, about the title. I didn't even notice there was something wrong with Matoi until today... Frankly I wasn't on much, so I didn't really check out a lot of things... It appears he had some kind of accident and had to be hospitalized... Now, I'm just left wondering WTF did he do? O_O;
His cutie face looks horribly bruised... D8
This is another thing that makes me wonder. What kind of accident do you have to go through to get bruised on your face? O_O

... I feel his pain... D8 I'll never forget that time I fell on my face... =3=;

I hope everything will be alright soon with him, and that everything will heal well; that nothing will leave scars. This shouldn't be a big problem since face-wounds heal very fast and well. (^____^)/

I gotta go now! ^^

~~ Oh, BTW, I noticed I got a new friends add - Thanks for that! ^^ I'm glad I'm still interesting enough to add! <XD; I haven't even checked out who it was yet, so I'll see who this is soon. Thanks again! 8D; ~~

... title stolen from JUN.
"キュアを発見しましたです！"

... OMY-FIJHVDIYGFDKHCJFGDSTYXFSAJDH!!! IGOTTAHAVEIT!...
Cure 68, right? August edition? Or no, wait... *spzz* I'm gonna look for it! D8< *determined*

Thank god for Jun - I totally forgot I have to buy the new Cure... Sadly, it's not the best time. I HAVE NO MONEH!... D8>
But I'm sure I'll be able to get it. 8)  Eventually! 8D;

So, I've tried to think of an outfit that I could get together without buying anything more... Sadly, after 2 days of just sitting there and thinking about it, I've come to realise this won't work. I've already went through my clothes to create my third outfit, so I know that there's nothing to create yet another one with... So, I just decided to try and make some stuff...
Ugh, it really sucks that Paypal felt they needed to "update" their system. Now, instead of having to wait 2 weeks for the payment to clear every 3/4 payments, it's like that with EVERY payment. Wonderful. Paypal actually fucked up my whole planning. =3=;

Yes, I said "fuck", which should show how horrible I feel about this all now... >3<; Fucking Paypal.

I don't even know what to do anymore... =3=;
Hopefully I'll get something in the mail today... *sighs* I should still get my lenses, my cds, my magazines, my shoes, my outfit, my other cds and the 2 photobooks, and-... I think that's it... I think?...
Bleeeeegh, I feel numb and bored with everything... =3=; As if I thought too much these days and worked too much with the whole planning... It sucks, because I hate feeling numb and bored... >3<;

I feel like buying a new guitar... BUT I CAAAAAAAN'T!!!! I have to save up money for my Horizon III... D8
I WILL GET MY HORIZON III DAMNIT!!!!! DAMNITALLLLLLLLL!!!... But I'm tempted to just buy it online now... Which sucks.
Buying guitars online can be bad. You can't see if it's damaged; you can't see what colors there are and how they look. Really, buying a guitar online is blind shopping. xOx;; BUT I WAAAAAAAAAANT IIIIITTTT!! I can't wait another 2 years... DDD8

Hehe, funny. When I feel bad, I shop. =3=;
Shopping is baaad, it makes me brooooke. Even more than I am in general. I WORK MYSELF INTO CRAP BECAUSE OF MY SHOPPING ADDICTION... I'm not really addicted, am I? >3>; I just buy what I need? <8D;
... Who am I kidding? =3=;

... But I like shopping... D8



... Anyone know where I can find Mago/chariots/whatever-mood packs for on here? I'm tired of the kittens... =3=;

... JUN used this a lot as a title lately, right? <xD;

Well, it's been a long time! What's been going on?

Well, both good news and bad news... Let's start with the good news, shall we? <xD;
The good news is, I just talked about buying the genei graphity photobooks 1 & 3, thankfully not for a huge price since-... will be back on the reason why later. xD; Also, everything I've bought lately has been shipped. 8D; It's not a lot, aside from the magazines, but I'm looking forward to receiving everything... I REALLY need the clothes/outfit-stuff by next week... Which brings me to the next good news.
I'll be attending AnimagiC 2009, in Bonn - Germany next week. I was told Panic Channel AND Aural Vampire would be there too... Whoever lives in Germany and is attending, or whoever is attending in general - and wants to see me, that's the place to be! (laughs) xD;
Hmm, my corset came, and I also got DIM album from The GazettE last week, and because I pre-ordered it around 4 months ago, I got a free big poster with it! ^^ I haven't listened to the album itself yet though...
ALSO, the €1300 that I had to pay for the laptop, is done by the person that was appointed to me in court. I told them my arguments - that I couldn't pay this and I wouldn't be able to go to study without the laptop. I gave them evidence and they had no choice but to help me with it! <xD; HOOOOORAAAAAAAYYYYY!!! That is really good news. ^^

The bad news is really, I'm horribly low on money... =3=; And the outfit I'll need by next week probably won't be here on time... =3=; So, I need to think of something else to wear then... Also, I heard Panic Channel cancelled their concert at AnimagiC next week... =3=; But Lilly and I are going to try hard to see them anyways if it's true that Panic Channel cancelled their concert at AnimagiC and instead are giving a concert not even 5 minutes walking away from AnimagiC. I've been listening to Panic Channel since the beginning, and I've always wanted to see them live. Sadly, this dream is probably not going to happen next week though. =3=;

For now, I'll stop rambling and talking and blabla, because I've tried hard to sum everything up and now everything is mixed in my brain. <xD;
I've probably forgotten to sum up some things, but we'll see...

Hopefully the outfit I've been waiting for will be here on time anyways, but I have to get busy and make a back-up outfit. ^^;

~~ And-uh... I still didn't get any help with the layout... T^T;;; I think I'm just gonna give up... D8 ~~  *to know what I'm talking about, see bottom of last post, the blue part.*

... title stolen from MATOI. No explanation - I think it's easy to get. xD

I've had that adult-to-adult talk... It sucked... =3=;
Basically, she told me she had a talk about the laptop I have to get for school, and told me that it couldn't be payed with a loan. I have to pay it before August 30. Yeah, the problem is IT IS FUCKING 1300€ !!!! WHICH IS AROUND 1800$ !!! AND AROUND 168000¥ !!! AND- (insert more currencies here)...

... I seriously have no idea how I'm gonna get that much money in 1 month... >3>; WTF PEOPLE! I AM NOT RICH! >8O;
I talked with my mother about this, and she said she wants to help me, so... We're going to see how much we can get starting now 'til August 24. If we're not close (which probably WILL be the case), I'm going to call my school and tell them I won't be able to pay that much at ones... >3>;

Not to mention, the books and supplies I have to get are 426€ more... =3=;
I haven't even started school yet, and already I feel like kicking someone's ass... =3=;

Well, tomorrow I have a talk with my shitty guardian that I got through Court because they still think I need supervision... x3x; Whatever, they also want me to go and DO something... And since I am going to study more, I need help with bringing up the money. >8(
If they won't help, I'll seriously shove the whole deal up their ass. From a distance. With a pair of tongs.

So-uh, yeah... I'm a little bit in trouble. But hopefully I'll be able to sort this out... ^^
I'll do my best! >8O;

(copied part from earlier post: I REALLLYYYYYY need a new layout, and I really want one with Iori, but it's hard to find... I did find one of Phantasmagoria and also already asked the codes, but then I noticed Reiya had the same layout... So, I dropped that plan... ^^;;;
If anyone can help me get a Iori layout, it'd be much appreciated! ^3^/  (any help! If it's telling me where I can find one, or make me one, or whatever, any help is appreciated! )

... Again, title stolen from JUN. Today, at this moment, it's not that hot, but the weather changes frequently... O_O;  (actually, at this moment it's COOL and it's raining REALY HARD... O_O; )

Okay, so... I wanted to tell a lot of things, but since I have to go soon, I'll just tell stuff about yesterday... ^^;
As I already told, I went to the cinema yesterday to watch a movie... (^_^)/ Before that I shopped a little, and bought some non-expensive things... Eventually I ended up spending about 50€, while my mother was generous enough for ones in my life to buy me some jeans... Yeah, I don't think that'll happen again though~ *laughs* She never buys me anything... ^-^;

Oh well, besides the jeans, I got a tripod, 2 pairs of fake eyelashes, a lipstick, nail-design-sticker-things (dunno what they're called), weird glasses that I only bought to look at (it's really strange... It has like a design on it that shows really pretty eyes... O_O; )... I also bought like 6 DVDs, because they were on a sale-price (6 for 10€ - I can't remember which at this moment...), aaaaand... Well, if I forgot something, I guess I'll come back to that later... ^^;;
So, I bought some things that are completely useless and only take up space, but whatever. xD;
Oh, and I also ate McDonald's... Which I normally never do, but yesterday was a good day I guess... xD; I ordered small stuff and a Happy Meal ONLY for the toy inside... *LAUGHS*!!! Because the new Ice Age movie is out in theatres, there's Ice Age toys inside the Happy Meals these days, so... I took my chance, because I love Ice Age! xD; I got this yellow cup-thing that colors when you put cold drink in there... It's hard to explain, so I may put up a photo of it some time... It's really cool! (*O*)/  It has Rudy and Buck on it~ xD; Then, I also stole the placemat-thing that was on the thingy you carry the food on, because there was Ice Age on there too... <xDDDD;;

In the cinema, before the movie, I also bought a weird Ice Age ice-cream that had a surprise-toy in there, and got a keychain with Diego... WHICH I THOUGHT WAS VERY AWESOME BECAUSE DIEGO IS MY FAVORITE!!! 8DDDD;;  The movie, that started at 7 o clock, was REALLY great too! I watched it in 3D~ and I had to laugh at a lot of parts... (^_^)

Weirdly enough, I also saw a lot of people that used to be either in my class or on the same school... >3>;
The 2 I saw that were in my class, are the 2 guys I have talked about a lot in the past... ^^; Yes, people... They were there; Chris & Lars... =3=;
Seriously, this was not a good day for me to run into them... But whatever, I didn't pay attention to them much~ <xD;

Well, it was a really nice day. ^^ I really enjoyed it... (^_^) I won't make this much longer since I don't have the time for it, but it was really really nice... ^^ I still have to buy hair-pieces though... Because when I wanted to buy another one yesterday; the same as I have now, they didn't have it anymore... =3=; SO, I have to buy TWO new ones, instead of just one... And hair-pieces are RIDICULOUSLY expensive... =3=;
But hopefully I'll be able to find some cheap ones...

At this point, I only have some quick-shot photos of that weird glasses and the lipstick I bought... I might put up some more photos later on, but... Well, these things were easy to shot.. >3>;

( Photos and such... )

... Interestiiiing!!! *LAUGHS* No really, they're REALLY good colors! =O I could do some serious cool makeup with these, I bet... >8D;
I haven't worn them yet though, so I'm not quite sure about the quality, since I only smeared some on my hand when I bought them... ^^; We'll see about that when I do makeup... xD;

(OH! AND I ALSO PAYED FOR MY NEW CORSET AND LENSES!!! YAAAAY! 8DDD;; )

... and besides this... You're not going to believe it but-...
I seriously saw a BEAUTIFUL BLUE MAZDA YESTERDAY!!! O___O;;; It drove right passed me... Oo;;; It's weird! It was actually the first time that I actually NOTICED such a beautiful blue Mazda driving passed me... xDDDD;; I can't remember if it was rx-8, a 3, or a 6, because I only saw it like 7 seconds and it was gone, but-... I seriously was like =>   O___e;;;;;
... And I also saw some GOOOORGEOUS BMWs!!! 8D; They were all in silver, but they were really really pretty... (*O*);

... dilemmaaaaa!!!!! XOX;;;;;;;;;;

Hey, did I already tell I woke up this morning to find my mother sent me a text message saying: "Hey, we have to talk like 2 adults when I get back home. It's about your mac."   ... with mac she means the laptop I have to buy... >3>; It sounds serious... O___O;;; Normally she never calls me an adult. <xD; COULD IT BE SHE FINALLY REALIZES I'M NOT A KID ANYMORE?! <8D;

Okay, okay... I seriously gotta go... I rambled too much... O_O;

Byebye for now!

(copied part from earlier post: I REALLLYYYYYY need a new layout, and I really want one with Iori, but it's hard to find... I did find one of Phantasmagoria and also already asked the codes, but then I noticed Reiya had the same layout... So, I dropped that plan... ^^;;;
If anyone can help me get a Iori layout, it'd be much appreciated! ^3^/  (any help! If it's telling me where I can find one, or make me one, or whatever, any help is appreciated! )
... COME ON PEOPLE!! HELP ME WITH THE LAYOUT!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD;; I can't find oneeee!! D8

... title stolen from JUN. =)

This is just a fast entry because it's around 2:30 AM as I'm typing this, and I just stopped playing Atlantica... Yes people... Even though I said I would only play it a little bit just to check out if something happened, I ended up playing for a long time again... But NO, I will NOT do this every day...

So yeah, nothing much happened since last entry, besides the fact I am seriously freaked out by something... *LAUGHS*
I think yesterday, or 2 days ago, I browsed JUN's blog and noticed he made a photo of a scary (but cool-looking) bug... D8

... If I remember correctly (I browsed seriously fast, so I could've read something wrong), he said something about finding this scary outside of his house, and then caught it and put it in a tank-thing... and then decided to take care of it as a pet.

... Now, those days ago, I didn't even read it all, but... Because I just checked his blog again, and saw THIS:

... When I saw this, I couldn't help but to wonder... He didn't REALLY decide to take care of this bug, right?! O_____O
... I admit it looks KIND OF cool (like that Pokemon~ xD; ), but... The fact that bugs already break an entrance so often and then terrorise the people who are scared of insects *breathes*-... Why in GOD'S NAME would you take care of such a big bug?!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bring it to the zoo! *LAUGHS* OR JUST SEARCH A GOOD PLACE FOR IT OUTSIDE TO LIVE ON!!!!!!! Not... taking it inside of your home and-...

... I know Jun wants to have pets, and he PROBABLY does not think it's responsible to get a dog or a cat or whatever, because he's probably too busy for those commitments... And it's probably easier to take care of random bugs or fish, but-... O___e;;;

... I have no words...
... I can only-...
............    *DIES OF LAUGHTER*

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!! XDDDD;;
... I can't remember much, but did he also name it?
(And what about his fish? What did he name that?)

... I don't know, even though I'm REALLY scared of bugs, besides butterflies and other pretty-looking ones (I don't mind bugs either if they stay away from me), and a bit confused and feel like pissing my pants, I seriously think Jun is probably one of the most curageous people on earth... Because SERIOUSLY... If it's true and he really did take it in as a pet... Just IMAGINE what could happen...
What if he's sleeping, and the bug escapes? Then, what if he wakes up and finds a bug on his face? O____O

... *RUNS* ...
"Ahhhh, Frank!!! Get the fuck off meeeee~!" XDDDD;;

Okay, okay... I rambled enough...
I should go to sleep, because I'm probably going to be busy tomorrow. ^^

I'm seriously curious about the names of his pets though... If someone knows, please let me know! ^^
I seriously still suck at reading Japanese (still @ n00b-level), so if someone could answer this for me, it'd be really awesome! ^^

Thanks!
&
Byebye for now! ^^

(copied part from earlier post: I REALLLYYYYYY need a new layout, and I really want one with Iori, but it's hard to find... I did find one of Phantasmagoria and also already asked the codes, but then I noticed Reiya had the same layout... So, I dropped that plan... ^^;;;
If anyone can help me get a Iori layout, it'd be much appreciated! ^3^/  (any help! If it's telling me where I can find one, or make me one, or whatever, any help is appreciated! )

... *checks*
It was called "New!" and it was about how new I was here... OBVIOUSLY... *LAUGHS* xD;
Oh, and how I was going to this anime conventions for 3 days or whatever...

But yeah, it was called "New!"... 8D;

... title from JUN. Again. =)
I'm too lazy to think of one myself right now because...

... BECAUSE IT'S TOO HOT!!!!!!
WTF!!!! I JUST FEEL LIKE STANDING UNDER A COLD SHOWER THE WHOLE DAY!!!
... I'm seriously getting a headache from it... It's really too hot... >3<;

It just rained a slight bit, and there's also forcast about there being a thunderstorm today, but besides these things the heat is rising nontheless... DDD8 I DON'T MIND WARMTH, BUT THIS IS TOO MUCH!!! HELLOOOOO~?!

There's nothing much that can be done when you can't set a step without getting a ridiculous headache... o~o;
Uhm... I've been reading an awesome book though!

3rd one I hope I'll finish reading this year... The book is REALLY thick though, so I'm not sure if I'll succeed... ^^;
(the other books I read were "The Satanic Bible"- by Anton Szandor LaVey, and "The Rape of Nanking"- by Iris Chang.)

... Yeah, they're all books people can learn from. SO WHAT?! XD;

... THIS HEAT IS KILLING MEEEEEEEE!!!! DDD8
... I hope "Lost" will be kickass today... =)

(copied part from earlier post: I REALLLYYYYYY need a new layout, and I really want one with Iori, but it's hard to find... I did find one of Phantasmagoria and also already asked the codes, but then I noticed Reiya had the same layout... So, I dropped that plan... ^^;;;
If anyone can help me get a Iori layout, it'd be much appreciated! ^3^/  (any help! If it's telling me where I can find one, or make me one, or whatever, any help is appreciated! )

... title from JUN. 8D;

Yeah, so I noticed an entry where he said he was shooting for Cure? (I think? My kanji skills have been failing lately... >3>; )
今日は撮影をしてたじぇ！

次のＣｕｒｅの巻頭です(^O^)/
Ｂ．Ｓ．Ｒｅｖｏｌｕｔｉｏｎ′０９！！
楽しみやな☆
その日ライブやるメンバーさんたちとわんさか盛り上がってたんやけど楽しすぎる☆

写真は俺の頭の一部！まぁ何かわからんやろけど！笑

なんせお楽しみに～♪

... It's for Cure magazine orrrr~? And it's for upcoming vol. orrrr~? 'cause if so, I gotta buy it... =)
... Wow, I'm really disappointed in myself~ xD; Some time ago I could've known... =3=; I guess the fact that I didn't have time to do much with Japanese the last few weeks/months, my Japanese reading skills really went down... ;3;

Not only this... Jun talks confusing sometimes anyways~ xDDDD;;

And what's up with the photos of his hands? O3O;
... He's so strange. xDDDD;;

Well, besides this I don't have much to tell at the moment...
Uhm, I won 3 € with gambling lot thingies... OwO; Yeah, wtf... xD;

Bye-bye!

(copied part from earlier post: I REALLLYYYYYY need a new layout, and I really want one with Iori, but it's hard to find... I did find one of Phantasmagoria and also already asked the codes, but then I noticed Reiya had the same layout... So, I dropped that plan... ^^;;;
If anyone can help me get a Iori layout, it'd be much appreciated! ^3^/  (any help! If it's telling me where I can find one, or make me one, or whatever, any help is appreciated! )

... title stolen from JUN...

So, here I am again! *LAUGHS*
Thanks for the comments, Angie! ^^/ I'll try to answer them right after this! ^^/

Nothing much has changed or happened in the last few... hours? I watched some movies yesterday... The 40 Year-Old Virgin, which I had to LAUGH reallyyyyy hard with, and a piece of a movie called "100 Girls"... Well, I didn't get to finish it, because eventually I went downstairs when I heard my mother was home, and started rambling about Phantasmagoria... OvO; Again.
Oh well, people that want to know me should really get used to that, because people that already do know me know that I can sometimes suddenly start to ramble about anything Phantasmagoria or chariots related... >w>;

ANYWAYS, so... I wanted to watch 3rd Rock From The Sun, but I missed it and instead got ABC Girls, which is a late-night program with nudity... =3=; So, I went to bed and blabla.

Today, nothing much yet... I woke up about 1/2 hours ago and... Did nothing at all yet. >3<;
I'm probably heading for the shower soon, but besides this I don't quite know yet... I got blisters again from playing too much guitar yesterday... XDD; ... I hate being bored though, so I should really think of something! >8O;

Uhm... Furthermore, I got mail from Mazda today... As surprise... O_O; I have to say I'm glad about it, because I need something good right now... xD; In the Mazda-envelope (seriously a Mazda-envelope... There's the Mazda symbol and the zoom-zoom stuff on there and everything xD), were 2 brochures and 2 smaller thingies, about Mazda 3 and Mazda 6. I guess they wanted to send me some stuff or something... xD;
I do love Mazda 3 and 6, so I don't mind it... ^^;

Yeah, excuse the blurriness, the darkness, and... The overall shitty photo~ =) ... And no, that Heineken is not mine, it's my lil bro's... OvO;
... Oh, BTW, Darn you Matoi. Darn you to he-y-all!! xDDD;;

Uhhmm, I also received a letter from the judge... =3=; They think I still have to be kept in eye-lock and investigated, so... This'll be until January 29 2010... MY BIRTHDAY... =3=; Oh well...

... I have to get going actually... O_O;
But I can't before I have said this...

... JESUS, this baby looks like Matoi... O_____O/

Okay, I'm going to get busy with the 5-word-meme-thing I got from Matoi too, so hopefully I'll be able to put that up today as well... ^^
For now, this is it!

*wave*

(copied part from earlier post: I REALLLYYYYYY need a new layout, and I really want one with Iori, but it's hard to find... I did find one of Phantasmagoria and also already asked the codes, but then I noticed Reiya had the same layout... So, I dropped that plan... ^^;;;
If anyone can help me get a Iori layout, it'd be much appreciated! ^3^/  (any help! If it's telling me where I can find one, or make me one, or whatever, any help is appreciated! )

... so I'll just write something fast! ^^;;

I did go to that school, and I also met a nerdy-like guy that seemed cool... Since he said he was going to be doing Game-Design study as well, I was sure he was going to be in my class, because when I had the convo about the studies, those people told me there was just going to be 1 class with this study. Eventually, when I was sitting in that RIDICULOUSLY HOT chill-place, they called out names for the classes and stuff... And it turned out he was NOT in my class, but they made 2 classes for this after all... bastards... =3=;
The classes had to go with their mentor-like-person-guy, and then there was a talk about explaining how to get the laptop for the work, and the books, and the thing called "reader", which I have no idea what it is yet, but I guess I'll see... ^^; Just a lot of stuff, also introduction days (3 of them... =3=; )... These will be in August, which is also when my studies will officially start, so... Yeah, whatever... *laughs*

Oh, yesterday I also had a meeting at the hospital with my old therapist... Things aren't going well with me and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, so I just made a spontaneous appointment to just chat a bit for one time... It was okay, until I had to explain what was going on... The truth is, I have been having horrible family-problems ever since I stopped self-harming. Ever since I actually talk about things, my family and I have been having really bad fights, even worse than normally... Sadly, they're all a team, while I stand alone... =3=;
Eventually, what comes out of it is always the same story. Supposedly, I only look at what they do wrong, never at myself, I'm a bad person, I'm the home-wrecker, and I should move out. Over and out. =3=;
It's funny how every time I try to tell someone, my mother tells them how it is a lie, that I'm making things up and these things are never said. >3>;

I guess I'm just kind of sick of it... ^^; It's never good to them. I never really do the right thing in their eyes... ^^; I am the "black sheep" in this family, and I always will be, so I should just try and move out and live with it... ^^; My little brother is a criminal, my sister sleeps around and is arrogant as hell, my mother is a liar and selfish... What the hell am I doing here anyways? O_O;

Furthermore, I had a real short 'chat'-like thingy yesterday with Matoi~ ^^/
Really, because I didn't have any contact with ANYONE the last few weeks, I started rambling horribly, and eventually the comment turned out to be scary-long... ^^;; So sorry~ xD

Uhm... I have to hurry now... ^^;
Uhh, well... I've noticed everything is very messy and outdated, so I have to update almost all of my pages... Most of them I think I'm going to drop though, because I just have way too many of them and I know I can't update all of them... ^^; Really, the most important ones I have to update with info and all are this LJ, MySpace (which I will do when I made the new photos), and my 2 Japanese blogs... ^^;

I REALLLYYYYYY need a new layout, and I really want one with Iori, but it's hard to find... I did find one of Phantasmagoria and also already asked the codes, but then I noticed Reiya had the same layout... So, I dropped that plan... ^^;;;
If anyone can help me get a Iori layout, it'd be much appreciated! ^3^/  (any help! If it's telling me where I can find one, or make me one, or whatever, any help is appreciated!)

... Again, I talk too much... *LAUGHS*

How I love to update this dear blog... xDD;
My 5 word meme thing will be put up very soon!!! ^^/

I know I haven't updated for a pretty long time now... ^^;
Sorry guys, I hope I didn't make anyone worry or whatever...

The fact is, because I signed up for a new study, I've been busy with that pretty much, PLUS the new photos I have to make in July/August... ^^;
(Not to forget, when I did come online before the break, no one was there so eventually my urge of going on kind of dropped... D8 )

These two things are pretty much what I am busy with every day, because I have to order a LOT of things... Tonight at 7 I have a meeting at school about the study too, and I'll get info and talk about what I should order, PLUS I'll already meet my class... Not to forget I have to get my picture taken for the name lists... =____=;;;;;;;;;;
Yeah, with the photos, I started on a new outfit... This time with a shorter lolita-like skirt instead of the aristocrat skirt that I thought of in the beginning of this year or so... ^^;; And I need to think of scenes and poses too... AND I have to try and get more of my body shown in the photos instead of close-ups on my face every time... In order to get some modelling work I have to get busy with this a lot... ^^;; (I'm PROBABLY going to do makeup tutorials too! ^^ People've been asking me for a while now, and I think I'm finally getting to the point of thinking to really do it... xD )

Sadly, In the last few weeks I have only been able to study guitar for a few times, not even every week... =3=; It sucks... I miss playing already... >3<;;;;

What I also miss is, my friends!!! I miss talking to the people online! The people here, Angie, Reiya, everyone!!!
It really sucks to be alone~ >3<; With all of these things keeping me busy for all of those passed weeks, I really did start to feel lonely... >3<;
I haven't talked to anyone for a pretty long time! O_O

Angie, it's been some weeks... The last time we sort-of talked was when she passed her exams (yay! ^^/ ) and I got a text message from her, which I couldn't reply to through phone, so I left her a message on Ameba...
Reiya, it's been... A REEEEEEEAAALLLYYYYY long time... Ever since somewhere before he moved out of his family-house... I really miss talking to him, 'cause most of the times, when we talked it was very goofy and funny... ^^;
Matoi, it's been... Jesus... O____O;;;; I don't even KNOW how long, but REALLY long... O_O; Sadly we didn't get to chat much at all, even before I had to get busy with these things... >3<; But a lot of people are busy these days, so... ^^;

Well, these are the 3 people I had most contact with... And even with these people contact has faded... >3<;
I'm failing, huh? ^^;;

I get more work and I start this new study where I actually have to go to SCHOOL, and somehow everything else-... I don't know... >3<;

I just really miss talking to my buddies... >3<
Hopefully this will change sometime soon... I want to have that urge of going online again, and I want to have the feeling of actually having fun again!

I'm very curious to know what everybody has been doing these weeks... Feel free to comment and tell me! ^^




Oh, about the forum... Some people did notice it was dying, and eventually I did too, when I had the time to check back again anyways... ^^;;
Yeah, the time I had to actually go on there every day sort of ran out, I guess... ^^;; These days I don't really have the time to go on there every day and roleplay, so sometimes I just log on and read what's new... Same story with hH, although I do plan to do some more work on there... Iori is waiting and I feel guilty of not doing anything... ^^;;;

Also, I've been dreaming REALLY weird things EVERY SINGLE NIGHT since about 2 weeks ago or so... I don't really get why, but I'll probably talk more about this later... ^^; I guess, besides this I really do have A LOT more to tell... ^^;;;;;;;

Hopefully, if my little brother won't be on here after I had that meeting at 7, I'll be able to check back on here and write some more stuff, although I doubt anyone will notice I actually wrote something then... *LAUGHS* xD

I look forward to talking to you all again!!! Please, feel free to comment and talk to me (and tell me what you've been doing and how you are doing if you feel like it!!! ^^/ ); I'm really curious and I miss you all!!!!! (^3^~*chu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!